I have not written in a couple of weeks.
Actually, that’s not true. I have written a number of posts since Stella got home from the hospital last month.
It’s just that right before I am about to hit the “send” button, I re-read the posts and decided not to send them. They were not the right “message” that I wanted to share.
It’s not a big deal. I don’t think that any of you would find what I wrote surprising.
For example, I wrote (and then deleted) a post called “Unexpected Pain.”
Essentially it was about how we had gone to bed one night and the next morning found ourselves on the way to the Emergency Room (and a week-long hospital stay) because Stella had very serious pain that seemed to come out of nowhere and surprised us both.
But the post was also about how I had gone to the wedding of a close friend’s daughter. Stella was not feeling well enough to attend so I went solo. Everything was fine until one moment, while watching the ceremony when I felt a sudden emotional pain well up out of nowhere. I guess being in an emotional environment like that without my wife just triggered something. I had to
excuse myself run away and sit outside for awhile trying to get a grip. Which, of course, I did and then could go hang out again with my friends.
See, no big deal, but not really worthy of a whole depressing blog post.